I was a latchkey kid growing up. Although I came from a good home, my parents were busy working to put food on the table, and clothes on our backs. I had a lot of time without adult supervision, and began getting into trouble at an early age.

I began smoking pot and selling drugs by 15. I also had a job, but my interest in school was non existent. I hardly ever went, and nobody seemed to even notice. My only interests were drugs, playing the guitar, then later the drums.

I was blessed by God with the gift of music. But at the time I didn't know it. For 14 years I played in different bands, but the drugs and broken friendships were just too much to handle.

I got out of the music industry, and began to manage for a professional wrestling company. I got back into drugs and lost all desire to do anything. I had hit rock bottom.

I moved back to Modesto, quit doing drugs, and got married. Our marriage wasn't working out, so I left and came to the Mission for a place to stay. That is the first time I heard about God.

I joined the Mission's New Life Program. I graduated high school, was clean and sober, went to church regularly, but after 10 months I had to leave to take care of my sick wife.

After leaving the Mission we fell on real hard times. Although we were going to church regularly, and I was even on the worship team, I started losing faith in God.

Our marriage was ripped apart, and I was thrown out of my house. Then I realized I had turned away from God. I prayed for forgiveness, and asked for direction.

I was tired of just getting by, so I returned to the Mission to finish my program. I am so thankful for the spirit and love of God that flows through the Mission. And to be able to finally able to use my talents to glorify God through the music ministry at the Mission. I have learned a very important lesson, not to lose faith in God for he is always faithful to us. - Sean Kirkland